“There are no road blocks to success, only mental blocks.” Manu Sherya Sharma
ALPHABET OF ABUNDANCE
Day 2 – B is for Blocks (mental)
“I create my personal abundance from an infinite source”
I woke up early this morning and just lay there as I allowed myself to come around. I like to do this – spend at least 15-20 minutes laying there just listening to my surroundings; a bee buzzing around my open window, the birds chirping away like they are having a mothers meeting and the neighbours children already out in their back gardens kicking seven bells out of each other – it’s a way of showing affection, apparently. And then…silence. All I can hear is the gentle whisper of the wind. I slowly open my eyes and let the light in. I am thankful for another day.
The first thing I do when I finally get round to checking my phone, is send a morning text to my partner. Then I read todays assignment. “Write down in your notebook all outstanding debts you have.” I don’t read further than this line as I automatically begin to feel the discomfort of having to assess my financial situation. Money is like that. Some of us have a hard time talking about it, making it and spending it.
Pursuing a career in acting isn’t easy. I remember one summer I had no work booked in, in fact, the whole year had been barren. I’d signed on and was desperately seeking work, any work. Whilst the dole office pushed me from pillar to post and left me without any money for 8 weeks, I remember counting the pennies in my money box (an empty 2 litre milk bottle) to make up the £’s just so that I could buy basic groceries. I promised myself I would never be in that position again. I ended up holding down 4 jobs just to make sure there was money in the bank. Money for when work dried up or an unexpected expense slapped me in the face or when the tax man came calling.
This is day two of 21 and I’ve already hit a block, but there is a part of me that has singed up to participate. There is a whole group of people, the “21 Dayers”, on the other side of the text all there to support each other through the meditation. We, at T.B.C, have even decided to dedicate our first blog series to talk about it. It’s all over twitter. It would be both wrong and cowardly to abandon everyone and the mission. I have a responsibility towards our readers, the “21 Dayers” and my team of bloggers. I have a responsibility towards myself.
I guess, in a way, that’s the point. When ever we try something new or different, it is bound to feel uncomfortable. Resisting what scares us or makes us feel uneasy means we stay the same. Facing it and making different choices means we allow change to happen. When change happens, we grow. We lean in towards trying to understand why we may have certain hangs ups, thus revealing a little bit more about ourselves and the people we chose to bring in to our lives.
Not continuing because I don’t like talking about my finances, or because I am scared that I might lose everything, robs me of self-discovery. I still have 19 days to go.
I read the affirmation again and press play on my phone. Deepak Chopra’s voice soothes me “Open your heart and mind up to the possibility that you can attract anything you want in life”. I sit at my table and begin to write down what I know of my personal financial situation. And…it doesn’t scare me as much as I thought.
What has blocked you from propelling forwards towsrds gaining a deeper understanding of yourself?
Enjoy the sun.